Questions and doubts

Ken and I have been dealing with a lot of doubt about the entire process lately. Sometimes I have moments where I'm so excited and can't wait to go, but a lot of the time I just want to say Screw it! and ditch the entire thing. We have such mixed feelings, but I really don't think we should fly half-way around the Earth not sure. I would feel awful to have the tax payer's hard earned money fly us all the way over there, and have us go "Oh, sorry! Tee hee! I kind of want to go home now". Sadly, there is a huge portion of PC volunteers that don't make it all the way through the service. Only about 2/3 of people last through the entire 27 months, and that portion is a lot higher in certain more "stressful" areas like Africa. If we are going to go all the way over there, I don't want to come home early, that would just be lame. I know that the Peace Corps would be great, but it is just such a long period of time to be away from home. Ken and I are super close with our families, and being away for 27 months is going to be freakishly hard. In some ways I think that doing just regular traveling (spending a month here and there) would be much more up our alley. On the other hand, so much of what I liked about Peace Corps was that it was totally different from our regular routine, and would really test us as people. Ken and I are just such home-based people and are really excited for Ken to go to grad school, get his teaching license, buy a house and have babies. No matter what we do, the house and babies will be a few years off, so the yelps from my uterus wont be appeased either way for quite a while, but neither of us is sure we want to tack on three additional years to the figure. I don't know what we are going to do, and neither of us are wishy-washy people. I hate being indecisive, and would really like to just make a decision already, but I guess we are going to have to think and pray on it a little more.
At this point, Ken and I are still moving forward with our applications. We've actually made distinct progress in the last two days. Ken was able to get ahold of his therapist who found his paperwork that we sent him months ago in a random box somewhere, and was going to fill it out right away. Once we get that done, it's just the statements, which wont be horribly difficult.
On other fronts, because we are unsure about Peace Corps as a whole right now, Ken is also planning to apply to the UofO teaching program that starts in June. The application is due in February, so he needs to move on it, but should be able to get it done. At this point we are moving ahead with both options, and hoping that it becomes crystal clear which way we are supposed to go. Obviously, if Ken doesn't get into the program Peace Corps it is, and vice versa. I royally doubt it will be that simple, and we will just have to decide at some point, but I would be nice if the decision was very cut and dry and basically made for us. Either way, it is a HUGE decision, and we're not taking it lightly.
Wish us luck.